The Mighty Viking

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The PNW (as I see it)

Had an interesting friend request on Facebook yesterday – someone from Germany wanting to know about the PNW (Pacific NorthWest, for the uninitiated) with an interest in moving here.

It was odd, and normally I’d dismiss it as a scammer. But something about the profile and initial conversation caught my attention. Ive noticed that many Germans don’t have the same social paranoias we have here in the US, so maybe, I thought, it was genuine.

So I answered.

And then I thought… dang, that was a lot of writing to just tell one person. So hey, if you want to know my take on the PNW, as told to a possible immigrant, here it is.

Its long.

They’re probably in an information overload coma right now:

“The questions you ask don’t have a single answer. But I can give you an overview of the region, as I’ve lived here in various places and climates.

Oregon and Washington have a clear ecological, and cultural transitions due to two major north-south mountain ranges that come up from California, and independent ranges in Canada.

The west coast is a rain forest. It is wet, and the vegetation is lush. Trees are big, and the communities there mostly evolved from logging, fishing, and farming. Tillamook is famous for its cheese, and we lived on a farm there for several years.

Just a few miles inland, the coast range traps the weather as it comes in off the Pacific, which creates the climate for the Pacific Northwest rain forest. In Oregon, the coastal mountains aren’t that tall, but the northwest corner of Washington has the Olympic Mountain range, quite tall, imposing, and beautiful. And the places west of it can get over 200 inches of rain a year.

Moving eastward, which is how everything is thought about here, a long valley reaches from about the middle of Oregon (Roseburg) all the way to Seattle. This is the cradle in which most of the Oregon/Washington community has evolved. Rich farmland, mild weather, easy terrain and access to wilderness recreation within easy driving distance make it a perfect combination of living conditions, and most of the population of these two states resides there.

The Cascade Mountain range is a rugged volcanic range that divides the states physically, environmentally, and culturally. To the west, the culture comes from a life of easy abundance, tech and manufacturing industry, and social activism, (which if I might inject a personal opinion, has become a contest to see who can be the weirdest). I am no lover of cities in general, but I used to love Portland. It has changed in recent years though – not for the better. Too many people. But it still is a beautiful city, as is Seattle for Washington. Each is the predominant political power, as it holds a majority of the citizens.

The mountains themselves are not conducive to large-scale settlement, so much of it functions as recreation wilderness or home to a certain breed of individualist.

To the east of the Cascades, the climate is desert-like. We have two kinds of deserts in the American West – Desert, and “High Desert”. As opposed to the coastal regions, the living regions of Central Oregon are at a bit of altitude – 3-4000ft – and is largely classified as High Desert. It is comparatively dry, though pine trees abound around its fringes, sage brush dominates much of the landscape traveling eastward and southward, dry climate conifers dominate further north in the east.

The people here in Central (and eastern) Oregon are often ranchers of cattle, sheep. A lot of hay is grown, supplying much of the state and beyond. In Bend, the biggest of the small central Oregon cities, the economy is controlled by ranchers, and people connected to the recreation Industries of skiing, biking, hiking, and river sports like kayaking and fishing. Recreation is a big deal there. The confluence of ranching and recreation is a constant source of strife, but we try to get along. Mostly.

The eastern part of the states have different mountains. The Blue Mountains, for example, are not all that tall, but manage to collect quite a bit of snow. There is a LOT of wide open space, and to me, a biker, the back highways are a gigantic playground.

Politically, there is a strong division between Urban, progressive believers who envision a better world and rural, conservative voters who wish government would leave us alone – liberals and conservatives as the two groups have come to be called. The city folk think of everyone else as backwards, uneducated simpletons and the rural folk see the populous cities as festering with fantasy-thinkers whose social theories have built unproved premise on unproved premise until their sophisticated, complex mechanisms fall prey to circular, overthought fantasy, whose self-delusion prevents an understand how things really work.

…Not to put too fine a point on it.

This difference of opinion, and the regional influence on thought, creates a fair amount of tension and animosity, something that has grown in recent years.

British Columbia shares more similarity than difference to the two states. Its differences are perhaps the comparative freshness of its history. Much of the province is still pretty raw, physically and culturally. Central and eastern regions were settled by a rough crowd that still remain – ranchers, and miners and loggers. All three still carry a strong influence from those days. People often say it would have made more sense to divide the two states and province up on north-south borders instead of east-west. It would have made for more uniformity of state cultures I suppose, but our differences have always been our strongest quality, Ive always thought.

The thing that makes our region most interesting is the still-evident signs of the settling of the land here. Our pioneers, in many cases, remain in living memory. Museums to logging are common, fields have horse-drawn implements – plows, rakers, mowers, etc – still visible and rusting. Recent human History is very much alive if you look for it.

Geological history is evident too – the Columbia Gorge is like a book of the centuries that you can read, if you just know how. The weather is notoriously predictable, everyone knows that what it does is going to be surprising, it will probably change in 15 minutes, and except for the population centers, will probably be extreme in some way (which is probably why so many live in the relative safety of the City. But then it floods there.)

I could talk all day about this place, because I love it. I am not an Oregon Native, moved to the Pacific Northwest at about age 12-13 (can’t remember which), to Tillamook. After 10 years in Navy Submarines, I moved back with my wife and kids, and have lived in all four areas described above. The Coast was my first and remains my favorite place. The “Valley” is how we refer to the primary population centers, which in Oregon is the Willamette valley. When referring to both Oregon and Washington, we call it “the I-5 Corridor”, a reference to the north-south interstate highway connecting Portland and Seattle to California supply lines that passes through the Willamette Valley. This was our home directly after the Navy. I went to College in SE Washington. And now, we live in an out-of-the way spot in central Oregon, nestled up against the eastern side of the Cascades, away from cities and closer to the large national Forests. Much of my love for Oregon comes from a thirst for wild places, and when I am angry or defensive of it, it is because of the gradual loss of those places as population grows. When I cross the border back into my home state from travels, I always smile. It is a complex, half-wild land that whispers possibilities and freedom of expression. It invites – no, it insists that a dedicated person think hard about how its wealth of resources are used. It wears its heart on its sleeve, whether for good or ill.

I hope this helps you. Thanks for asking.”

Grief and gratitude

For most of us, when some tragedy enters the news cycle we read it, and before long we move on.

ARA San Juan, S-42

And that is how it should be, I suppose.  We can’t all embrace the totality of traumatic impact.  It would be good to let these things go, to relegate that knowledge to the bin of things about which we simply say, “but life goes on”.

Healing matters.

But that doesn’t mean we should adopt an inward indifference to the trauma around us.  Because many of the people around us cannot, even if they wanted.  And this affords us, the distant observer, to use our UN-traumatized abilities to do some small thing to ease the journey of the hurt ones, whose remaining life experience is unwillingly colored with painful memories, or dysfunctional processing of the world around us.

I would imagine most of us have some thing that has happened that gives us the ability to empathize to some small degree, if we wish to.    And in empathizing, we can open the door back into society for people who suddenly don’t feel welcome there, who can’t fully understand what has gone wrong with themselves, who are embarrassed and ashamed sometimes by their own odd behaviours and reactions.

It would perhaps seem odd to suggest that an average person could empathize with those things connected with the loss of a submarine.  To be able to feel the tension of losing the means of returning to the surface – no propulsion, no hydraulics, and conditions that prevent using the emergency blow system – if you haven’t been there, the imagination has a hard time recreating that feeling.  A few of us have, and can.  But there are still aspects that anyone can relate to in some degree.

The ARA San Juan, S-42, of Argentina was lost two years ago about this time of year, under mysterious circumstances at the time, without notice, without message, without a trace.  44 men and women seemed to the rest of us to have just ceased to exist.  But those 44 people were not islands to themselves.  While the news focused on the search for a few weeks, most of the world went back to doing what they were doing after the search was called off.

But down there in a remote part of the world, 44 families – mothers and fathers, children, brothers and sisters – all still proud of the accomplishments of their sailor – looked in vain at the place where a face should be, and was not.  Perhaps they always will.  A community of consummate professionals will always see an empty spot on the pier where a boat should be pulling in and out periodically, a blank spot where something about the skills and efforts of their profession failed, a little patch of doubt that niggles in the back of the mind, and at test depth rattled like a saber.

And across the globe, there are other families of other nations doing the same thing.  Children going through life with an unspecified fear of the unknown, communities stained with loss, and doubt, and a sense of failure.

It isn’t important that this be about submarines.  There are as many types of tragedies as there are people, I suppose, each with something unique in their patterns of grief and trauma.  But the more we can observe and remember, the sooner we can begin to see ways to connect in the common things, to reassure those uniquely hurt that there is still humanity in them. We who can respond without being overwhelmed can offer an acceptance back to humanity for those who struggle.  Regardless of the nightmares that yanks them awkwardly awake from their sleep, despite the unnatural reactions to daily life that confuse and sometimes hurt those around them, despite the guilt of having lived by virtue of luck, or the shame of some small factor that suddenly seems like the one mistake – something that should have saved them – we can offer the promise that they are still human.

Here in America, we have a day to relive the joy of Thanks.  We get out of practice, so it is good to remind ourselves of our humanity.  It started as little more than nervous smiles of survivors, celebrating little more than another breath, another heartbeat, another sunrise.  And perhaps that’s all this Thanksgiving of ours should be.  In the midst of feasts, and the touch of family, maybe the real celebration should be had by exposing ourselves to the host of traumas we have shared as a species.  Maybe we should take a moment to gaze into the eyes of a troubled child, or a haunted soldier, to hold the hand of a terminal old codger staring into the grave, to see through their eyes what brings them fear and self-doubt, and lift them back into their humanity.  We should do this not to gloat about our own relative comfort, nor to brag about how much we may have experienced, but to reconnect mankind in whatever small way we have been afforded, whether it be by circumstance or providence.

We each here are survivors of something.  

A friend of mine has set up a means of doing just that.  When the San Juan went down, and was given up as lost, he and others responded to the grief of the families with empty places in their Christmas celebration by holding a fundraiser for Christmas toys for the children of the lost crew. This has become an annual tradition.  There are many ways you can touch someone who feels the loss of family – this is an easy one. There are many other ways, with both your resources and your heart. I regularly communicate with family of the Scorpion tragedy of 51 years ago, and can attest that the pain of loss never goes away. But sometimes it can be transformed. And the transformative catalyst is your humanity.

Find something, and do it.  We are given two hands for a reason:  one hand to lift another up, and one hand to take the hand extended to us.  These are both things we do in giving thanks.

Speaking to that of God in everyone:

At the front of the restaurant where I take my usual breakfast while in Washington, there is a landing at the top of the stairs to the front entrance.  It’s big enough for maybe a couple people to stand and look down at the parking lot, or out across the way to where the cars and trucks are speeding up and down the freeway north and south.  It’s a fine place to bask for a moment in the afterglow of a full belly of good breakfast, before taking your leave and diving into your day.

A fine place for brief meditation.

As I swung the outer door open into the wet grey morning, an older man stood at the handrail looking out, his countenance fixed far beyond the stream of distant traffic.  It struck me that he wasn’t looking at a place, but at a time.  Wherever and whenever he was looking at struck me as being a melancholy thing, a bitter-sweet memory.

And maybe it was the presence of so much transportation going on at once here, maybe it was my breakfast conversation with Al, a man I wouldn’t recognize if he wasn’t on the fourth stool in from the left, but whom I feel I know more about than some of my own kin.  Al was a truck driver, and an ace mechanic, and spent time as a crewman for funny cars.  We talk a lot about these things.  Or maybe it was having talked last night online with a bubblehead friend of mine who restores old cars, especially classic muscle cars.

Maybe it was just a compendium of all the conversations I’ve had over the years, about love and loss, both personal and…well… not to over-dramatize it but…machines.  I don’t know for sure. These things just come to me.

But as this stranger stood there, not even flinching as I burst out of the doorway behind him, I felt moved to speak.  I sidled on up beside him, joining in his gaze, trying to see what he saw.

“She’s not coming back”, I said after a moment with that finely honed surety that complete strangers always use when they haven’t a clue what’s going on.


I picked a muscle car out of recent discussion memory, “that ‘71 GTO… it’s not coming back.”

I spoke with the special reverence that longing for the past always requires.

I don’t know why I speak to strangers this way, but it means I meet some nice people.  Their reaction to the oddity tells me a lot about them, I guess.

He stood silent for a few seconds, measuring no doubt what the heck was happening, but a a slow nod came to him – I think I felt it rather than saw – and he drew a breath to speak.  I expected… I don’t know, I expected a confused answer, to which I’d smile and chuckle, and after a greeting be off to my day of shenanigans.

But instead, he drew a breath, turned to me with a wizened face marked everywhere with life and experience, and said in a solemn “rest her soul” tone,

“‘64 Peterbuilt”.

And we smiled a warm smile at each other.  The fondest memories inside each of us, entirely different in technical detail but exactly the same memories of busted knuckles, wild rides, and intricate skill – teamwork between man and machine that ties them together forever – these swirled behind our eyes and communicated with the other.

It was a long conversation of maybe 20 seconds.  We closed it with a mutual chuckle, he going in for a meal, and I descended the stairs into my day.

My dad tells me stories of Great-Grandpa Sutton, and his driver, Ring Schneider.  Grandpa liked to build race cars.  A machinist by day, he would through the winter months keep himself out of Grandma’s hair by building cars, and racing them in the summer season.  Ring was his driver.  My dad as a boy would watch them work.  Seldom would they speak, and yet, inexplicably, each would know what the other was doing, one-word answers served as technical discourse.  They trusted each other enough to not have to ask questions constantly, if the other spoke, it was as if each themselves had spoken what the other did not explicitly say aloud.

And their bond was forged out of earned trust, into the mutual respect of men who knew what they were about.  

It is the same bond that men who have sailed beneath the Sea.  Or on the battlefield.  Or in the air, where mistakes cost lives, and the survivor’s stare into another time, at some distant morning outside a breakfast cafe, and understanding one another without the interruption of words.

Talk, as opposed to, say, money, is sometimes valued inversely proportional to its quantity.  A man who can say a lot with few words is rare thing, but as beautiful a phenomenon as any of the intricate relationships in nature.

This Veterans Day, you may feel the urge to say “Thank You” to some old codger with a ball cap from an old boat, or from an old war.  The response will very possibly be awkward.  What he says back may sound like a practiced platitude, or a gruff push back.  Don’t be put off by this.  By no means let it stop you from saying it this once, or again to another veteran.  If you aren’t a veteran yourself you aren’t likely to be able to speak on his frequency, but the acknowledgement still means something to him.  It lets him know that his time spent was relevant, that his work, while unknown to you, earned the recognition every human strives for, even if that work is as foreign to you as Space Flight.

And yet… perhaps it isn’t so foreign.

Perhaps it is, at its core, no different than driving a ‘64 Peterbuilt on logging roads in the mountains.  Or a mother wrestling 3 rambunctious toddlers through a grocery store week in and week out.  Or talking an irate customer back down into sanity.  If you do something, and do it well, there is at least one thing you have in common.  Find a way to connect and let that old guy know that as distant as his experience is from your own, it is a human experience.

Sometimes we just need a reminder that our inhuman experiences, sometimes atrocious memories, and skills that seem to have no relevance in the modern world, have not really rendered us inhuman. Perhaps that bit of us that is “of God”, as George Fox referred time often, is what we also call humanity, the thing that remains when all our deeds have been done, things have passed into memory, And we look to our Creator for a little feedback on our work.

Tell a veteran tomorrow that they are, and always have been, human. It is the most important thing we can be.

The Last Gas Station

“Yaknow, for a place where you’re lucky to see more than one car for every 10 miles of road on the surrounding highways this gas station sure got busy all the sudden”.  

I spoke from behind a gas nozzle, seated on my Road King at a pump that had been empty of waiting cars when I had arrive just a few minutes ago.  Now, three cars waited behind me, and two on the other side behind one filling opposite the divider.  He was filling both the tank and the extra in the bed of his pickup – this might take a while. Five pairs of eyes burrowed into the back of my skull.

“It’s the only pump in town”, injected the man with the other nozzle, wide-brimmed straw cowboy hat pushed back on his head while he looked down into his rear tank.

“I think it’s the only one in the county”, chimed the passenger, standing behind him, elbows resting on the pickup bed side-rail.  “Isn’t that right, Bob?!”, he hollered back towards one of the waiting cars.

The door to an aged 60s El Camino opened behind them in their line.  Dust, rust, and a flattened can of Hamm’s announced the debarking of a grizzled, bent codger held together by nothing but boots, hat, and a belt.  Against long odds, it was all bound up in a bundle with a streak of orneriness sticking out like an unkempt shirt tail.

Bob struggled up out of the drivers side.  The thirty seconds it took him to exit, walk around, and hold his peace till he arrived on station felt like a time warp.  My gas meter clicked off, but I was duty-bound to give the man the time he needed for a question I had instigated, but was now inextricably bound to.  

My head had been full of highway-speed just a few minutes ago, and it screamed to be back to it.  I watched those boots slowly shuffle up, drinking in fully the juxtaposition to my road-rushed state of mind.

I took a deep breath, and accepted the moment.  I immersed myself in the slowest shamble I had ever witnessed.  I embraced it.  I vowed to myself to learn the secrets of this wondrous tool, this terrible weapon.

“Isn’t that right, this is the only gas station in the county, isn’t it?  Elbow-resting Passenger repeated himself as he stood up respectfully, giving the Village Elder space to step through.

I surreptitiously slid the expended nozzle back into its holster while the old man got his speaking voice warmed up, and reviewed his memory of 7 decades occupying the region. Briefly he began to speak, but then went back to his sagacious reverie.

I imagined him driving, in his mind’s eye, to different stations that may have been open at one time around the sparse county.  They seemed to briefly flashed, one by one, expressed beneath the deep bushy brows that loomed over his eyes.  His gnarled hands fumbled for his pockets, and he shifted gradually from pedestrian to orator.   

Bob himself had only started using cars when he had bought the El Camino, and couldn’t recollect any stations before that.  But he did remember the birth of one of the future owners of a gas station to his own nephew back in ’57 he could recall,  and then an untimely death and the closing of the station in ’86.  There were two brothers some miles out who thought they’d have a go at running a pump up at the county line, but ranchers couldn’t get up there in winter, and locals never traveled that way normally, so it too had shut down oh, heck, sometime before Bob’s wife had passed 20 years ago.  

All the facts were there, they just needed a little chronological sorting.  And maybe a push start.

I glanced over during the recitation at the lifted pickup behind me carried a strapping young man and his girl, towing a horse trailer and unable to squeeze in on the other side even if they wanted.  Anywhere else that face would be flushed and angry, the girl might have been hurling unladylike expletives at the holdup.  But not here – not now. The stout man behind Them in the big Dodge with an ATV in the back sat patiently while Bob worked it out.  

He made a final conferral with his inner self, agreed, and drew himself up to the task of speaking.

“Yep”, he rasped in the strongest voice his aged body could work up.  He swung his head, neck, and body around towards me for a moment, in a stiff nod of acknowledgement that I was the instigator of this speculation.  

“Yep”, he reaffirmed thoughtfully, “I think that’s right”.  And so it was a consensus.  All agreed that if Bob couldn’t remember any other gas stations in the county, then by golly there were none to be found.

I glanced up the street at the dilapidated tire store across the way, still announcing tire brands from 30 years ago.  What with the line behind me, I changed my mind about leaving the bike clogging the lane to the pump.  A sarcastic statement about the condition of the town urged me to speak it, mirth all around its edges, goading me into a smile.   Almost a smile. 

Instead, I mashed the helmet back on my head as Bob worked his way around to his car door.

“I guess it’s a good thing I stopped, then”.  I filled in the remaining empty sound-space with the machine’s engine.  I nodded to the two men still pumping diesel, smiled and nodded again to Bob, and pulled back onto the highway to lose myself again in the wide landscape of Montana.

To the good people of Jordan, Montana, I apologize for what I almost said, but didn’t.  It would have been rude.  

Funny, but still rude. 

Answering God

We are not Creators.

We have a God for that, something larger, An ubiquitary Force we sometimes like to pretend we understand, and like to misuse like a weapon and claim as our own.

We are Artists.  We are Engineers.  We are Nurturers and Husbands of the land.  We have learned to heal, to build, to breed animals and plants for our use.  

But we are not the Creators.

We can shape stone, and steel.  We have discovered tools, and vessels to carry us and our awareness to the depths, and heights, and the far reaches of the planet.  

But we are not Creators.

We have learned to recombine, to extract, to invent new combinations of things with the raw elements of our planet.

But we are not Creators.

We have been given a Planet to use, and an abundance of life, from which we draw our own life.  We have been given the intelligence to learn how they work, the ability to develop skills to make them work for our benefit.  We have been given strength, and instincts that urge us onward to fit, as we should, into this vibrant planet. We can do things with this planet no other creature can do.

But Creation is not one of those things.  We are not Creators.  We are Creatures.

And so, take what you are given, and hold it close.  

Understand everything that is given.  Resource, Skill, Wisdom, and Compassion.  Understand that the Creator has given these to you.

This is Worship.

Nurture what you are given. Use what you must to thrive.

And when you have grown, and what you are given has flowered, and is ready for harvest, when you have something to give, give it.

This is Love.

This is our place and purpose:  to receive, to nurture, and to give.  We receive from the Creator.  We nurture ourselves, those close to us, and the earth we are given.  And we give of our excess.  We give of our knowledge, of our resource, and of our love.

Tyrants will not give, and slaves cannot.  Only the free can give.

Worship the Creator

Love the Earth, and all in it.

Build with what you are given.

Give back a measure of your work.

And have faith that doing these things as free men and women is how the Creator intended this world to work, that a greater purpose is served.

This is the Equation of Life.  As we address that of God in creation, we answer to the Creator.

Tower of Babel

I just realized what’s going on.

And, being a Saturday morning, I’ve got a little time to reflect on this epiphany.  

I should warn you, this is something of a political post, though I’m not here to hammer on one side or another. Ya’ll a bunch of sinners that need Jesus…

We are all talking about the division in this country, the “them against us” duality that seems to both cripple and confound us.  Why can’t the other side see what we’re talking about?

Turns out it’s pretty simple.  There are more than two principle sides in the matter.  There are four sides to our present politics.

The system we have, the one carved out by revolutionaries nearly 250 years ago, was a system of self-government.  It was brilliant in its day, and still holds the answers to our present problems.  But part of its beauty is dependence on a moral underpinning to the society that uses it.

In 1776, that moral underpinning was fairly ubiquitous, provided through the discipline of a population founded on a combination of Christian principles, and the self-sufficiency required by the New World.

In recent times, however, Christianity, along with most religions in this country, has fallen into popular disgrace through the abuses and misdeeds of its prominent leaders, to the point where people have become confused , skeptical, and mistrustful of not only those leaders, but of the faith itself.

And as our collective sense of morality and self-discipline has waned, we have fragmented into four groups from two:

Left and right, liberal and conservative.  One bills itself as the party of the people, of the common man.  It sees government as a tool to cultural improvement, to social improvement, it is a powerful means of economic improvement.  It sees itself as the party of seeing good to do, and then doing it collectively.

The other party sees government as a necessary evil, a Pandora’s box of temptation to those drawn to power.  It sees good to do as well, but only as individual effort any of us are free to undertake, not a government function.  And sometimes, by not addressing inequalities, it opens the door for private companies to set themselves up as Demi-dictators and economic monarchies.

So, two groups so far, liberal and conservative, both well-meaning and flawed.  Each needs the other for balance.

The other two groups align themselves with one or the other identity, but there is a critical element missing: moral character.  The soft underbelly of American government is that despite its best intent to anticipate depravity and nip it in the political bud, the demise of Christianity and self-sufficiency has affected our government system in surprising ways.

So now, there are four groups, that can be characterized as follows:

  • group 1:  Christian Conservatives.  Oddly enough, I don’t mean the group that calls itself by that name.  What I mean is good people brought up with Christian values, and who see personal investment into society as critical.  Their principles are not set by their own subtly-disguised desires, but by a written standard they’ve come to accept and live by.
  • Group 2.  People who have spied, in a situation of minimal government , opportunity to take advantage of trust, scarce regulation, thinly-spread enforcement, and graft-powered preferential treatment in legislature.  
  • Group 3: liberals who see government as their moral and societal redemption.  These include both certain Christians and atheists, whose drive to do good extends to deeds they themselves don’t do, but rather commission through election.  In this sense, a division appears within the atheist group where some have turned it into a quasi-religion with its own moral code, largely adopted from the core of Christian values, while others revel in the guiltless freedom of hedonism.  
  • Group 4:  those that confuse liberalism with anarchy, and set themselves up as gods, seeking nothing higher than the power to make decisions, without all that awkward “answering for it” thing.

So, we have two groups of patriots, and two groups of pirates.  Each patriot group has, within its ranks, pirates.  If we could only take a few minutes out of our busy schedule to address this confusion, these schemers in our respective midst, we could maybe restore our American system’s function.  But we are caught in a ego trap – we need foot soldiers in our cause, and are willing to take on any mercenary willing to fly our flag.  We need “useful idiots”, because we have come to see “Freedom” as something we can only keep through the use of our side’s particular propaganda, which needs believers to have power.  We have abandoned our faith in the rule of law.  And it is largely because of systemic failure brought about by the sheer weight of unscrupulous groups, because of the demise of moral character.  If you can’t enforce law, then very quickly people lose hope.

We have always had evil.  This is the motivator of the development of our government system.  It had a plan to scuttle power-mongers.  It accounted for greed, graft, manipulation.  It had a plan for all manner of bad behaviour.  But even the framers of our system knew there was a weakness, that there was a way this system could fail.  They knew the system could be subverted with sufficiently applied Apathy and moral decay.

And it seems right now that those who would tear anything down for a buck smell blood in the water.

They say 90% of leadership is knowing what to call things.  This concept is normally applied to deceptive advertising.  But with one small twist we can turn this lie back right side up.  Know what a thing is.  Don’t give it a name, rather discover its name and true nature.  Do it before you align yourself with it.  Purge your belief system of unwanted influence.  Find a moral center that reflects your own values rather than work through a list of compromises you’re willing to make to gain allies.  Understand and be aware of deceptive labels, and call all things by their right name in your mind.

Things are what they are, not what we call them. At the end of the constitutional convention of 1787, a woman asked Ben Franklin as he left the building “Well, what have you given us, a Republic or a monarchy?”

“A Republic”, he answered, “if you can keep it.”

He also did a little writing on the topic.  Bear in mind that Franklin was no regular church-goer.  But he still recognized the positive influence of religion in society:

“We have been assured, sir, in the sacred writings, that ‘except the Lord build the house they labor in vain that build it.’ I firmly believe this; and I also believe that without His concurring aid we shall succeed in this political building no better than the builders of Babel; we shall be divided by our little partial, local interests, our projects will be confounded and we ourselves shall become a reproach and a byword down to future ages. And, what is worse, mankind may hereafter, from this unfortunate instance, despair of establishing government by human wisdom and leave it to chance, war, or conquest.” (Benjamin Franklin) 

And perhaps prophetically:

“Only a virtuous people are capable of freedom. As nations become more corrupt and vicious, they have more need of masters. ” (Benjamin Franklin) 

To which I might add, perhaps the liberals are right.  Perhaps we have become so completely corrupt a society that we once again need a king.

But perhaps we can still save this, by reconsidering our own character, and fixing its weak spots. Strength of society depends wholly on the strength of the individual, and the family.

Perhaps it is better to answer the question with “A family.  If you can keep it.”

Something Revolutionary

The story is told of two signers of the Declaration of Independence – Thomas Jefferson and John Adams.  Both were Presidents of the United States, and while they differed politically through much of their lives, they reconciled in later years and became dear friends. They died on the exact same day July 4th, 1826, 5 hours apart. Adams last words were,” Thomas Jefferson still survives”.  He was mistaken- Jefferson had actually died 5 hours earlier.  Nonetheless, their deaths occurred on the 50th anniversary of the signing, which signaled the beginning of the nation.

Something happened on that day in 1776 – something Big. Something revolutionary.  

Something sacred was brought to the human experience.

The birth of this nation was ushered in by a few brave men with a vision of a government founded on freedom.  Their vision was not of a nation that could do great things with the communal efforts of its citizens.  It was of a nation great because of its space and construct – conducive to the greatness its citizens could generate in their own way, answering the need they saw around them.

The ink of the Declaration of Independence drew an inspired boundary around what is right and proper to the human experience.  It illuminated the parchment upon which a structure for human co-existence could thrive – if followed.

To this day, two forces assail those borders: Personal Greed, and “The Public Good”.  Each is a perversion of an ideal; self-sufficiency, and care of our fellow man.  Each is a lie disguised as the regalia of the Powerful, and  the Righteous.

Some say it is our sacred duty to ease the suffering of our fellow humans as we find it.  Others  say  it is our duty to take care of ourselves so that we stand ready when the opportunity to serve others presents itself.  These are right and proper in their proper setting perhaps, but when each is isolated from the other, our ability to choose our purpose is undermined as the balance of power falls under the sway of others.  The purpose of the Declaration of Independence was to claim for its future citizens freedom of the heart to choose what is right as we see it, not chains of control to force us to do what others think is right.

In the swirling, muddy sea of intrigue bestirred by Evil to hide from us this sacred place, our Declaration continues to shine – through both its success, and in the failures when it is bypassed, undermined, and subverted.

On this annual celebration we hold, it would do each of us good to reflect first on this remarkable scripture, and then rejoice, each in his own way, the implemented principles it brought about.  It is only by refreshing our understanding and commitment to Freedom that we can arise the next day with a clear mind for what it is we fight.

Rolling Thunder, 2019

I would have liked to have shared video of the Rolling Thunder ride from yesterday, but phone battery didn’t hold up for it.

But maybe that’s ok, because I now have to tell you what it was like through the filter of my perception, which I don’t have a lens for on my camera yet.

One thing stands out head and shoulders above the rest.  People – real people – are still very excited to be American.  In response to their excitement, I waved.  I high-fived.  I first-bumped.  I saluted.  I even photobombed a group of Asians trying to get a picture, one guy in front of them with taking a picture over his head with all of them facing so the riders would be behind them.  I snuck (I don’t believe I’ve ever snuck on a Harley before, especially with this one, but well… opportunity struck) up behind them and stopped just as he snapped the group photo.  We all laughed, there was hugging, handshaking – you’d have thought I was the returning prodigal son. it was a highlight of the 20-minute ride. 

There were People of all shapes, sizes, colors, and backgrounds.  It is peculiar to sit in a parking lot full of bikers, who largely fit a visual stereotype, and then ride through a crowd of people who normally treat that stereotype with a certain protective distance.  Those people and we become, for a few moments, One.

The way I interpret my chosen Canonical spiritual writings, that brings God into our midst.  Our language and cultural differences may use different names for God, but the God I believe in knows all our languages just fine.

The ride’s route takes us through the heart of the DC Monuments, a place from where many of the iconic images can be seen up close and personal.  Of particular interest to me always is the Lincoln and Washington memorials.  And there are large spaces where, in any other city, would be a solid mass of buildings with businesses.  But this space, in the nation’s Capitol, is reserved for The People.  People that are maybe not involved with Politics, but are certainly very, very involved with being American.

I say this because Americans do their political thing every four years.  By design, we decide on someone to represent us in that messy forum.  We do it because we have lives to live.  We have crops to plant, houses to build, children to raise, And once in a while, that living we do must involve standing for a moment, and drinking in the courage it has taken over the history of our country to win and defend the one thing we stand for – Freedom.

It is no perfect Freedom we enjoy.  At every turn there is someone trying to bend us to their will and benefit.  Businesses do it.  Ideological groups do it.  Neighbors do it.  Foreign enemies do it.  From every angle, one man seeks to subjugate others.  

Freedom does not rest in some sacred temple, impervious to the elements in its vault.  It is a small thin egg, filled from within with life, and protected from the outside by the fragile shell of our written Constitution, incubated by nurturers and defended fiercely by the blood, sweat, and tears of its parents.

And who are it’s parents?

It is us.  We have not inherited a relic.  Each generation must give birth to its own  Freedom, must nurture, defend, and teach the next how to live.  Or it dies.

Idols are quickly forgotten as a people assume the idols can take care of themselves.  We pray in vain for idols to protect us, believing them to possess supernatural powers.

Freedom is not – cannot be – an idol.  It is a living, perpetually reborn infant.  And it must be treated that way.

Today we’ll celebrate one of the greatest sacrifices made since the Revolution.  But we don’t do it to worship them.  We call it Memorial Day because remembering is critical to our future.  We will have to defend it again, and that defense is not some fantasy of future glory.  It is today.  Freedom cannot protect itself.  It cannot raise itself.  

And if we cannot love it enough to get excited about it, we do not deserve to be its parents.  So today, in remembrance of those who sacrificed their life for freedom, we celebrate this infant’s life in somber wonderment.  We boggle at the dedication of the men and women who are gone from us, and honor the scarred and broken survivors of that debacle.  And we do it in the one way we can that brings us together.  Those who know and cherish freedom come to be filled with a song. And they take that song home in their hearts, filling this country with the overpowering sound of Rolling Thunder.  

This is who Sean is:

And I’d like you to know
Sean Roesener

Tonight’s Viking Sacrifice: The Kingdom

It’s a fine thing, to dream of being the king. To be able to bring together a powerful house, to command great deeds be done, noble works built at your behest. Naturally, your motives are so pure that people OUGHT to be compelled to your will. Your ideals are so illuminating that only those with Evil in their heart would even question them. Right?

But yet..are YOU ready? Is this all it takes to be a king?

The Ballad of the Kingdom has been sung to exhaustion through history:

The Dawn bursts upon the land brilliant, it’s warming light bestirs life, and pathways emerge from the night’s shadow.

The noonday fire burns hot, as it acquires a taste for its power, and even after the earth is fully warmed, after the crops have received their water, after the forests and meadows have feasted, it continues to gain strength, wilting and burning that which can’t be protected by shade and water. It’s nature is to burn, it can do nothing else. The farmer must tend to his land’s needs, water must be provided, earth plowed and prepared in its season. Without this skill, the kingdom bursts into flames and is consumed.

The evening shadows are fickle, tricking the eye and fostering imagined monsters, and seeing paths that are not there. Evening is a time for gathering, and preparing for the night. If not attended to, the kingdom stumbles into the night without a lamp, and with no memory of the daytime paths that lead past the rocks, and the holes, and the cliffs. It is overtaken by the vandals who seek opportunity in the kingdom’s sloth and ignorance. The evening is a warning of the harsh and dangerous night.

The kingdom built on the backs of its slaves will find itself helpless in the dark against those who were forced to prepare, when they realize they don’t need you.

The kingdom that draws over-much from its stores in revelry meets the darkness drunk and helpless against those who’s senses are sharpened by evil and wicked opportunity.

The kingdom that denies the oncoming darkness will be overtaken and snuffed out before dawn, and its strength will return to the land, awaiting another day, and another husband.

We view our kingdoms – from the tiniest family to the most extravagant empire, as a source into which we dip for our needs, and our wants. But the bucket doesn’t work until the well is dug. So we Sacrifice the kingdom- that is our revelry and leisure at its expense – until we have dug our wells, and sowed good crops, and irrigated and weeded and defended against marauders. Then, and only then we may sip from its well, and gather the strength required to walk boldly in the night, to sleep with confidence, and rise tomorrow ready for the dawn.

If you want a kingdom, then truly be a king. First, you must lead, but how can you lead if you don’t understand following? You must learn to follow. You must learn to BE what you would lead. Follow until you understand “the first shall be last and the last shall be first”.

If you want the kingdom you’ve built to be honored, then BE honorable. A lasting kingdom is not something separate from yourself. You must be a part of it, until it is a part of you.

If you want your kingdom to be able to give you something, then give. It will give back of the fruit it is fed. If you give your kingdom deceit, it will deceive. If you give it anger, and reasonless fear, it will hate. If you give your kingdom violence, it will destroy.

And if you give your kingdom joy, it will sing. If you give your kingdom protection, it will nurture peace.

And if you give your kingdom love, it will multiply, and will find a way to sustain you through the darkest winter nights, while other kingdoms fall, or become monsters.

So tonight, we Sacrifice the kingdom we want, and pray for the kingdom we need.